Two Personas by Nina
Ever since I got a Mistress name I have been in a confusion. I haven't claimed this little agony to anyone because it seems non big issue to them and I thought I was too sensitive. Having two personas, a dominatrix (Nina) and melancholic myself (Real Name) have always conflicted inside of me. When I dominate Nina comes in front, when I'm off Nina recedes deep into the heart to take a rest, and me as a real name comes back and I can be myself.
Sometimes I made mistakes that wrong side of me comes out in a wrong situation. I spoke in a cold, demanding way in my private life and made them hurt. At times at work I wasn't really a good dominatrix when I wanted to hold true myself the fullest than Nina. Conflict it was, it was immature behavior of mine and I'm sorry.
There was a long silence during my holiday and I had a breakthrough - the conflict does not exist any more. I accept Nina is an integral part of me, a part of my devotion to BDSM. Separating the two personas in one body make the conflict, because there is only one core of me. It's like a tree, I have two branches, but the main body is one, that is the true myself no matter how many branches I have.
Two faces now integral, it connecting to the core of mine. So I no longer worry or make a mistake. I can relax and find happiness and freedom there.
Sometimes I made mistakes that wrong side of me comes out in a wrong situation. I spoke in a cold, demanding way in my private life and made them hurt. At times at work I wasn't really a good dominatrix when I wanted to hold true myself the fullest than Nina. Conflict it was, it was immature behavior of mine and I'm sorry.
There was a long silence during my holiday and I had a breakthrough - the conflict does not exist any more. I accept Nina is an integral part of me, a part of my devotion to BDSM. Separating the two personas in one body make the conflict, because there is only one core of me. It's like a tree, I have two branches, but the main body is one, that is the true myself no matter how many branches I have.
Two faces now integral, it connecting to the core of mine. So I no longer worry or make a mistake. I can relax and find happiness and freedom there.
