( VOYEURISM ) by Hikaru
( VOYEURISM )
2013⁄06⁄01(土) 10:24
Recent I had a very interesting session VOYEURISM.
If the BDSM is a game of catch,
mistress trough balls to slave on same consciousness.
But VOYEURIST never catch a ball,
it must be DEAD BALLS.
Can you guess?
How do they receive these dead balls?
Imagination is a key.
And you become closer in distance than a person because it is treated as a thing.
Motherhood ultimate with the domination.
If VOYEURIST is a sense to return to the body of mother,
You get rid of one's existence and may get deep sympathy...
(author HIKARU)
Quoted from ☆HIKALUX☆
2013⁄06⁄01(土) 10:24
Recent I had a very interesting session VOYEURISM.
If the BDSM is a game of catch,
mistress trough balls to slave on same consciousness.
But VOYEURIST never catch a ball,
it must be DEAD BALLS.
Can you guess?
How do they receive these dead balls?
Imagination is a key.
And you become closer in distance than a person because it is treated as a thing.
Motherhood ultimate with the domination.
If VOYEURIST is a sense to return to the body of mother,
You get rid of one's existence and may get deep sympathy...
(author HIKARU)
Quoted from ☆HIKALUX☆
Two Personas by Nina
Ever since I got a Mistress name I have been in a confusion. I haven't claimed this little agony to anyone because it seems non big issue to them and I thought I was too sensitive. Having two personas, a dominatrix (Nina) and melancholic myself (Real Name) have always conflicted inside of me. When I dominate Nina comes in front, when I'm off Nina recedes deep into the heart to take a rest, and me as a real name comes back and I can be myself.
Sometimes I made mistakes that wrong side of me comes out in a wrong situation. I spoke in a cold, demanding way in my private life and made them hurt. At times at work I wasn't really a good dominatrix when I wanted to hold true myself the fullest than Nina. Conflict it was, it was immature behavior of mine and I'm sorry.
There was a long silence during my holiday and I had a breakthrough - the conflict does not exist any more. I accept Nina is an integral part of me, a part of my devotion to BDSM. Separating the two personas in one body make the conflict, because there is only one core of me. It's like a tree, I have two branches, but the main body is one, that is the true myself no matter how many branches I have.
Two faces now integral, it connecting to the core of mine. So I no longer worry or make a mistake. I can relax and find happiness and freedom there.
Sometimes I made mistakes that wrong side of me comes out in a wrong situation. I spoke in a cold, demanding way in my private life and made them hurt. At times at work I wasn't really a good dominatrix when I wanted to hold true myself the fullest than Nina. Conflict it was, it was immature behavior of mine and I'm sorry.
There was a long silence during my holiday and I had a breakthrough - the conflict does not exist any more. I accept Nina is an integral part of me, a part of my devotion to BDSM. Separating the two personas in one body make the conflict, because there is only one core of me. It's like a tree, I have two branches, but the main body is one, that is the true myself no matter how many branches I have.
Two faces now integral, it connecting to the core of mine. So I no longer worry or make a mistake. I can relax and find happiness and freedom there.
